I remember being *very* unwell - people expected things like getting out of bed or just eating a meal without spilling the food from my fork or spoon on my lap. Achieving those things was difficult to do. My memory was so bad that each time felt like the first time trying that at all after falling unwell - My mind knew what a fork or spoon was, but my body seemed not to have any idea,
"Pour the soup into your mouth" I'd think as my shaky hand inevitably spilled it on the tray I then used,
"Cross… Continue

I've often harped on about how people I once knew have been less than supportive throughout the course of this recovery, but I've also begun trying to see things from their point of view : someone they knew (myself) who was a good friend and drinking companion stuck in that past life and with a neurological disorder which left him constantly appearing like we all used to at 2am, when the booze ran out and we were about to crash for the evening anywhere we could on the floor.

I remember those ti… Continue

Well, it finally happend. Stephen was "let go"..he 'lost' his job. Most of you know he was a youth pastor. He (we) continued to work at the church post 'e'..(almost four years now) Some things changed that is true, but we still managed to do the job..we just did it differently. The pastor decided though that he could get more people for his money....doing more if he fired Stephen. We are pretty much devastated. Trying to keep a roof over our head and not get too depressed. We continue to pray an… Continue

I actually recall waking in hospital in the midst of a cold New Zealand winter (icy, no snow) in 2005.....and again the next day when I thought it was the first, and the day after that until, maybe a month afterwards, I began to expect to awaken in hospital. I recall this having happened now but, at the time, it felt like waking after a hard night drinking and trying to recall the events of the previous evening as everyone informs you of how silly you were. Everyone still said things of the even… Continue

Hello all,

It's me Hope, guess what?
Oh, I'll tell y'all I made honors and I start inturning in Dec.
WoW! I'm doing it WOW!